And 485 makes a year.

Wow. I really thought I'd hit 500 before I hit a year! But here I am on my 'blogoversary' and typing out entry 485 (490 if you count whatever I have in draft mode! I should see what they are!). What a slacker. ;) That means an average of 1 1/3 entries a day though I often post nothing than 5 entries in a day because I'm nuts like that. The average month would have about 40 entires in it. January was the greatest number of entries at 51 (with May just behind at 50). October only had 21 entries that much. I suspect early pregnancy + Liam's first birthday contributed.

What a freaking year.

My very first post was literally right after I found out *SURPRISE* we were pregnant with Lily. I was QUITE cool and collected and barely showing just how freaked out I was!

Then there was, in fact, my baby's first birthday party and then his actual first birthday. And then Kate the Great's Wedding Date! and "afterparty" the next day where I met a bunch of INTERNET PEOPLE (including G Homie )and had the best time ever.

My adorable nephew's birthhappened in early November. I sent out an email to tell my family I was pregnant right around 20 weeks! Then there was the first Thanksgiving I cooked for. After a failed attempt to discover the sex of 'the baby' we finally found out Lily was a Lily

December was pretty chill though I did give Liam his first disasterous hair cut. Two months late I posted Liam's one year montage. There was the Christmas drama (in three parts!) and Josh and I celebrated 3 years married.

January was also fairly calm. I was hormonal and bitchy and everything a pregnant lady should be. At the end of the month the big bad depression word and possible medication was mentioned leading to me catching my PPD/PPA super fast w/o waiting too long after Lily's birth.

February was just drama with EVERYONE! My mom. My husband's mom. My sister. Gah.

In March I ranted and raved and complained a ton. I had a meltdown that every woman about to add a 2nd baby does (either public or private.) Liam had his first professional hair cut! And there was fun ol' fake labor that stopped not much later. This went on for weeks. Also noteworthy? utter heartbreak in March for the miscarriage of a sweet baby I already loved belonging to friends of mine.

In April? I had some
'gas' pains' and then one day 'late' MY AMAZING GIRL ARRIVED! There were lots and lots and lots of pics. The full birth story more than a week late. Of course part of that is because I went crazy and less than a week after delivery was in constant anxiety attack mode and got on some meds. While my mom didn't make it for Lily's birth she did send a lovely package

In May I turned 25. Our cell phone was "stolen". My son realized he had a sister and he didn't hate her. For mother's day Lily gave her first smiles. Then there was the bartholin gland cyst drama. I got my fantastic mei tai of goodness. And I made the decision to start PPD meds Lily also barfed in my mouth.

June was another super dramatic month. Liam had his first skinned knee. I got my first PP period. Then all hell broke loose after my mom visited for the first time. My final grandparent passed away but there was a silver lining as we got to visit with family we haven't seen since my dad died which was just amazing.

July? Lots of normal being a mama kinda stuff. Including the most horrific 10 seconds of my life. Then there was the hit and miss 4th of July. My husband got his 2nd new position this year. And then he had an interview for an even BETTER position within the company!

I did the famous 'ask me anything' post. There was some major drama involving sexual abuse in my family though I never fully disclosed that situation. I got a new haircut and new glasses which basically made me feel like a new woman! I finally admitted to the big bad internet that I was worried about Liam's development and then he had his official evaluation which solidified everything I already knew. My son also had some nasty bug that stuck around over a week and had me mighty worried.

I cannot believe August was just a few moments ago. Another full kinda month. Got very upset to learn just how difficult it is to prosecute child molesters ESPECIALLY if the molester is a teenager himself. We celebrated 9 years since my dad died. We found out Josh will have a 2nd interview! one of three people, for the 'big job' he applied for...but not until the end of Sept or sometime in October. We got the clinical summary of Liam's delays and I made the appointment for early childhood to get involved. We worked very hard on food and doing lots of food play which wasn't too successful. I also had more than one moment of stress regarding Liam and his non-diagnosis which I'm coming to terms with more and more each day.

The biggest drama yet occurred with my mom after I sent her Liam's eval. We hadn't spoke since the drama in June but I shared that and it all blew up. Good news is I spilled my soul to her and finalized what I needed/wanted/would accept. My aunt wrote a very sweet emailabout the Liam situation.

For the first time in over 2 years I drove a freaking car and continued to do it quite a few times more after the first time and couldnt shut up about it. Then I went and went to the store with Liam alone!

We had some good family time where I proved I'm the garage sale champion.

Then there was the start of the great tooth drama. Which was a lot of drama Though we did finally get him examined by a pediatric dentist and those teeth come out tomorrow! *SOB*

Josh had his vasectomy.

Thus far September's been quiet. I haven't updated on the fact that my mom and I suddenly have mended bridges. I found out she stopped drinking and smoking pot which explains why she wasn't speaking to me again. She never does when she's in addict mode. I have a million pics to upload from our adventure this weekend. Tomorrow is my mom's birthday AND Liam's teeth extraction AND my therapist appointment. And let's not forget a big update about yesterday where Lily & I hit Target, the mall, and got coffee all on our own!

I *heart* my blog. Pink fluffy heart it even. I had a blog for years on the now defunct diary x. I miss it so. I never thought I'd find another "home" but a year later? I think I have. And lets not even mention all the amazing new people I've met in this last year. I didn't anticipate that. I anticipated my same small group from dx would follow me, a select few 'in real life' folk perhaps, and mostly I could just keep sane while spilling my guts. Instead? I've found this whole crazy GROUP of crazy ladies who are a wonderful edition to all that is the drama of my life.

So happy blogoversary to me! This took entirely too long to do and I must now change a poop diaper. And maybe, ya know, update for real. ;)

~M